I am feeling like crap, I just had an argument with one my good friends on the phone over the purchase of "Wiggles" tickets...can you believe it?
To cut a long story short, there was a miscommunication between us both that caused some agnst and grief. She thinks I'm wrong and I think she's wrong.
This conversation ended with me breaking into tears and her thinking that I was depressed and that there was something seriously wrong with me.
I don't think I'm depressed, maybe tired and struggling with keeping the house clean & tidy, and also
worried about my little ones as they both are sick with colds.
Both girls have runny noses, and the sniffles since last Saturday. "Popette" seems a lot better, but "Cherub" is sneezing and congested, and having trouble breathing. I know it's nothing to be too concerned about as it's only a cold. And I shouldn't be too worried about it, but with "Popette's" track record of catching colds, they tend to hang around for a long time and are hard to get rid of. Then without realising it she passes it on to her little baby sister.
Does this sound like I'm depressed or suffering from Post Natal Depression? I don't think so.
Yeah I'm feeling upset, but I don't think I'm suffering from PND. I have completed the Edinburgh test - which is a screening test to help determine if someone is suffering from PND, with the Early Childhood Nurse after "Cherub" was born, as well as online, and the result didn't indicate any
I guess there are days when the job as a mother is hard...real hard. I have a nearly 5 month old and 3 year old, and sometimes have days that remind me of the movie "Groundhog Day" with Bill Murray, where each day seems like the day before and so on.
There are days when we are stuck in the house, because of the unpredictable weather, or due to the girls being sick etc, and go stir crazy.
There are days when all I can see is a mess from one room to the next, and when I clean it up, it happens all over again.
I try and get the house in to some sort of cleanliness, but often its in the kitchen for a quick clean, wash "Cherub's" bottles, get the steriliser on, and that's it. As I then have to get "Popette" fed, dressed (although she is getting better at dressing herself), feed "Cherub", spend some time with "Popette", clean up after "Popette', make our lunch, take "Popette" to the toilet, change "Cherub", etc etc.
Today I've done some cleaning while the girls have been having a nap. Put a load of washing on, which now needs to come off the line as it looks like the afternoon shower is on its way. I don't know, maybe I am expecting too much of myself.
Maybe, I'm just having a bad day.
But, if you think you might be suffering from Post Natal Depression (PND), and not certain if you are brave enough to speak to someone about it, below is a link to the Edinburgh test:
Answer the questions honestly.
If you think you might be suffering depression or Post Natal Depression (PND) try talking about your feelings with someone that you trust or get in contact with your local GP.