When Popette was born 11 weeks early, I knew then that I wanted to be there for her and make sure she was hitting her milestones and growing up to be a normal little girl.
I didn't want to be spending my days working in a job that I didn't enjoy, or to come home feeling stressed and tired, and not be able to give my daughter the attention she deserved.
I wanted to be there for the milestones, watch my little ones play, help them become confident, strong, happy kids and enjoy every moment with them while they are little.
As everyone says, this time goes by so quickly.
I know I won't get this time again.
Lately I've been contemplating returning to work on a part-time basis, I'm still unsure what I want to do, but I know returning to work will mean that I am taken away from Cherub and I miss things like:
* Her little voice asking me "Mumma, come sit and play" or "Mumma painting!".
|Painting a picture! (Not quite)|
* Have Cherub drag me away from the computer saying "Mummy pleasssee" and making me sit on the floor and play blocks or read a story.
* Hear an excited little voice say "bubbles" when I fill up the kitchen sink to do the dishes. She sees bubbles and wants to play, whereas I see dishes that need to be done.
* Those moments watching her with her dollhouse, or serve cups of tea to her dinosaurs and teddies.
* Receiving random cuddles and kisses.
* Taking her down the road in her pram, and see her little hand creep out from the top.
* Watch Cherub get all excited when we pick Popette up from school, or see Daddy arriving home from work.
* Hear Cherub say "Hello" to things like the Moon, Sun, or to our dog. She is such a friendly little girl.
* Taking Cherub for a ride on her bike in the sunshine
|Riding her trike|
* Hearing my eldest sing Frozen songs (over and over again), while it drives me crazy, I love hearing her sing.
* Watching my littlest climb up the ladder of the slippery dip all by herself, and excitedly slide down to the bottom.
* Help out in Popette's class with the reading groups on a Thursday morning. I enjoy spending this time with Popette and seeing her participate in class.
* Take the girls to music class and watch them sing (or not) and play instruments
* Take the girls to the park and push them on the swing.
While there are days when I feel frustrated and be in need of a little break from both my girls, most days I am grateful to be their Mummy and to share this time with them.