03 February 2015

Letting go

Some days its hard letting my girls go. Today I dropped Cherub off to preschool,  its her 3rd day there and she is loving it. She was so eager to find kids to play with when I stopped the car she said "Bye Mum". I replied "You can't go yet, I need to walk you to your classroom". Cherub gave me a look of disappointment and said "Ohh", then told me "I want my bag on my back like Popette". So I did as she asked and helped her place her over-sized Peppa Pig bag on her bag, after I give her the biggest of hugs, more for me than her, then trotted her over to her preschool.



She was very excited, waving to her new friends as she walked through the gate. She gave out hugs to some of "her people". I love that she loves going to preschool, yet I'm also a little upset that I don't get the "Mumma I want you" and her clinging to my leg. She is so different to her big sister Popette, who was very clingy and cried when we would drop her off at daycare.



Cherub has become our little extrovert and will quite happily approach kids she doesn't know in the hope they will play with her. It saddens me (just a little) to see my youngest grow up in front of me and that she wants to be little Miss Independent.

I know I have to let her go and grow, but at the same time, I just want her to stay small and need her Mumma.

Popette who returned to school last Wednesday is now in Year 1. At first she was in a composite class with Yr 2, I was a little worried to begin with. Then thought it would push her and be a good thing. Unfortunately, due to low numbers, all the Year 1's have been re-shuffled around and she is now been placed in a Year 1 only class. I was a little disappointed for her as I liked the teacher as did she.




Popette was a little unsettled last night not getting to sleep until after 10pm, which I think was due to the changes. Today dropping her off to school she came in for a second hug, hugging me that little bit tighter as she needed me so many years ago when we dropped her off at daycare. Popette is definitely the introvert out of the two girls (taking after me), and at the same time she's a sweet, loving, smarty pants of a little girl who just wants to be included. I'm really hoping she finds "her people" at school this year, and becomes more confident with her self.

I feel as though I didn't do enough with her (for her) when she was younger, and worry about her. But I guess the life of a parent is forever worrying that the decisions you make are the right ones and hope they will only affect your little ones positively.

Knowing we won't have any more children, I find it hard seeing my girls grow up (too quickly) and in letting them go to make their own decisions, mistakes, choices.

Do you have problems letting go? How do you cope with your children growing up?

10 comments:

  1. Big hugs. Our girls are similar in approaches and needs. My older daughter finally found her people starting in year 2 and has blossomed over the last few years gaining increasing confidence each yer. Tomorrow she is putting in her nomination form to try for school captain. I love that she is trying and I am praying it is not the popularity contest I fear it can be. Xx

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    1. Thanks Deb xx I hope your daughter goes well with her nomination x

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  2. Such a sweet post Julie. Part of me looks forward to my girls growing up and the other part wants them to stay young as they are now. I hope your eldest daughter settles now the changes have occurred and as for cherub how lovely that she loves preschool!

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    1. Aww thanks Rebecca. I'm so happy that Cherub loves preschool, its wonderful seeing her in her element (although I do miss her). I'm keeping my fingers crossed Popette finds a group of friends she enjoys playing with and school will become a happy place again. :)

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  3. It's a shame they shifted the classes around, but at least they did it now rather than later in the year when everyone was used to it. I think it's inevitable that we will always worry we didn't do enough/didn't push them enough/hovered too much/let them go too much. x

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    1. Thanks Emily, yes I'm grateful the move was earlier on in the year. Thankfully it's only to another class and not another school which would have been much worse. Hopefully she'll get back to the swing of things soon. :)

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  4. Oh Julie - I have HUGE issues with letting go. I need them to still need me and every now and then I get a glimpse of that and it make my heart swell. They will always need us. They just will xx

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    1. I really hope so Son, I don't like them being too independent! Of course I can't be with them every minute of every day, but I still want them to need their Mumma & Dadda ;) xx

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  5. Isn't it so sweet seeing them carry those huge backpacks? It is so very hard to let go and it's a tough job finding that right balance of not being too overbearing.
    Your little girls are just adorable, Julie x

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